This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Caleb Lucas Brule. 
         I had a wonderful pregnancy with Caleb. The only thing that went wrong was the car accident I got in with Caleb at 34 weeks, it wasn't my fault. I was hit B/C a young girl tried to make a light and turned in front of me. I was by myself and wearing my seat belt but the air bag hit my stomach and caused me to go into labor. I went to the hospital and they monitored me. I was given a shot that thankfully stopped the labor. Every night since I had contractions but nothing. Then late at night we went to the hospital at 4:30 am at 6cm. Caleb was born naturally at 9:25 am on a thrusday morning on March 09, 2006. Weighed in at 7.12 pounds and was 19.25 inches long. Healthy as can be.                 
         Everything was going great till the early morning of July 30, 2006. My husband Jay had just got home July 29, 2006 from a 30 day deployment. He came in at 2:30  in the morning. We spent the day together as a family and by the end of the day I was so tired from being up so early that I asked Jay to put Caleb to bed. He said sure B/C he wanted to spend time with his little boy, that grew like a weed the month he was gone. 
         Jay put Caleb down at 11:00pm and he was still awake (We we're trying to get Caleb into falling asleep on his own). He was playing with his mobile. Then when Jay went back up the check on Caleb he had fallen asleep. I woke up at 12:02am to change my daughter's diaper and check on Caleb. Caleb was not alone in his crib for more than forty minutes. I went into his room and looked in the crib. The light was still off. I noticed from the night light that he wasn't breathing and then I started calling Caleb's name, telling him to wake up. I then lifted his little baby hand and it was lifeless. I started to panic and called for Jason. I turned on the light and saw Caleb was white, warm and had jelly like substance coming from his eyes. Jay panicked and I told him to call 911. He kept telling me he was sorry and he tired that he didn't know what he did wrong. 
         I grabbed my two year old Juliana (who was there the whole time) and ran outside to find help. We live in Navy housing so everyone is very close. I got one of my nieghbors, who took the phone from Jay. I then helped Jay with CPR. After a few minutes, I ran outside again to find more help (with Juliana in my arms). I went to four different houses. I rang on everyone's  doorbell, knocking like crazy screaming "my baby, my baby"!  I then ran to the end of the road and flagged down the ambulance and they took Caleb. 
          I followed behind them in our car w/ Jay and Juliana. We got to the hospital and they wouldn't let us be w/Caleb they just kept telling us there working on him and trying their best. We prayed and prayed for Caleb to be ok and I called all our family to come. Good or bad Caleb's not breathing(we live in ME and our famliy, "Thank God", is from CT ). Then after, what felt like forever the Doc. came out and said those words you never want to hear, "I'm sorry we did all we could....". 
         My husband had Juliana and lost all control. I asked if I could see him. I got into the bed and held Caleb. He was so cold. I kept putting the blankets on him.  Caleb was so white. He was my little boy and I could have held him forever. The nurses had to keep telling me that he's with GOD and that is his shell. It's ok to be with your family ( who was falling apart at that time). I finally decided to leave (It was the hardest thing I ever did). The rest is too hard to keep telling. Maybe at a later time.  



                      SLEEP TIGHT MY LITTLEST ANGEL!
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A wonderful friend of the family prayed to Caleb and wrote a beautiful song, that was played at Caleb's Funeral. I was told the words come straight from Caleb and God.

Mommy and Daddy please don't cry
I've come to sing you a sweet lullabye
JESUS was waiting, I was never alone
He came to carry me home........

Mommy and Daddy it's so pretty here
I see angels and rainbows filling the air
Children are dancing to GOD'S Special song
I feel safe, I really belong.....

Mommy and Daddy I LOVE YOU so
Always remember your never alone
We'll be together one special day......
But for now I'll hug you when you pray......

Thank You Sue Leekus so much for the beautiful song
I'll never have the words to tell you how much it means to my family.


     
                   Some People Only Think Of Angels 
                        But I Hold One In My Arms!
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IN MEMORY OF...    

You never said I'm leaving  
You never said goodbye  
You were gone before I knew it,  
And only GOD knew why  

A million times I needed you,  
A million times I cried  
If love alone could have saved you,  
You never would have died  

In life I loved you dearly  
In death I love you still  
In my heart you hold a place,  
That no one could ever fill  

It broke my heart to lose you,  
But you didn't go alone  
For part of me went with you,  
The day GOD took you home.    
                 
                  - author unknown


                  Budded On Earth To Bloom In Heaven!
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~~• ONLY THE BEST ~~•

A Heart of Gold stopped beating,  
Two shining eyes at rest.  
GOD broke our hearts to prove  
He only takes THE BEST.  
GOD knows you had to leave us,  
But you did not go alone 

~ For part of us went with you,  
The day HE took you HOME.  
To some you are forgotten,  
To others just the past.  
But to us who LOVED and LOST you,  
Your memory will always last.

                   ~ Anonymous ~


    
Death Leaves A Heartache No One Can Heal. 
  Love Leaves A Memory No One Can Steal!                            
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ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT  

The stillness of the morning wakes me up,  
But I don't see  
Why the world begins another day  
When my son's not here with me.  

This house feels strangely silent  
And his room, a lonely place  
I long to touch his soft brown hair  
And kiss his small sweet face.  

I'll never get to hear him call out 
" Mom,  Come See What I Just Made!"  
I'm only left with memories  
Please GOD -- don't let them fade.  

Deep in my heart,  
His spirit lives  
His laughter,  I'll still hear  
He'll forever be my little boy  
Though I can't hold him near.


A Mother Holds Her Childerns Hands For Just A Little While 
              But She Holds Their Hearts Forever!                     
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HI DADDY 

Hi Daddy, it's me,  
Your baby boy in the sky.  
Won't you tell me Daddy,  
why does my Mommy cry?  

Doesn't she know I'm happy here,  
HEAVEN'S a beautiful place  
Oh,  how it hurts me,  Daddy  
to see tears streaming down Mommy's face.  

Daddy,  tell her I'm much better here,  
JESUS fixed my heart.  
But when I see Mommy crying,  
It just about tears it apart.  

I know it hurt you both,  Daddy,  
When JESUS took me away.  
But you and Mommy remember,  
We'll be together again someday.  

I can't wait to hug you,  
I never got the chance before.  
When it's time for you to come,  
I'll be waiting at HEAVEN'S door.  

Then you'll both understand,  
JESUS knew where I needed to be.  
What a marvelous place to live,  
Just wait and you both shall see.  

Please let Mommy know,  Daddy,  
That I heard every word she said.  
And I remember her softly touching me  
As I lay in that hospital bed.  

Just one more thing,  Daddy,  
Before I have to go,  
I LOVE YOU both very much  
And just wanted you to know. 


Life Is Not Measured By The Number Of Breaths We Take 
      But By The Moments That Take Our Breath Away!              
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What's A Mother???

I thought of you all, 
I closed my eyes 
And prayed to GOD today.
I asked what makes a MOTHER 
And I know I heard HIM say, 

A MOTHER has a baby.
This we know is true.
But GOD can you be a MOTHER
When your baby's not with you?

"Yes You Can!", HE replied
with confidence in HIS vioce,
"I Give Many Women Babies, 
When They Leave Is Not Their Choice."

Some I send for a lifetime
And others for a day.
And some I send to feel your womb 
But there's no need to stay.

I don't understand this GOD 
I want my baby here.
HE took a breath and cleared his throat 
and then I saw a tear.

I wish I could show you 
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child smile 
With other children and say,

"We go to Earth to learn our lessons
Of Love and Life and Fear.
My MOMMY loved me oh so much
I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a MOM 
who had so much love for me
I learned my lesson very quick. 
My MOMMY set me free.

I miss my MOMMY oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep on her pillow's where I lay.

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek 
and whisper in her ear, 
MOMMY don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I'm here."

So you see my dear sweet one, 
Your children are okay.
Your babies are here in MY home
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with ME
until your lesson is through.
And on that day that you come home
They'll be at the gates for you.

So now you see what makes a MOTHER.
It's the feeling in your heart.
It's the love you have so much of 
Right from the start.

Though some on Earth may not realize 
that you are a MOTHER until their time is done, 
They'll be up here with ME one day
and know you're the best one.

Written with love for all MOTHER'S missing their baby.
                  - Author Jennifer Wasik


     There Are Things That We Don't Want To Happen 
                          But Have To Accept. 
    Things We Don't Want To Know But Have To Learn  
And  People We Can't Live Without But Have To Let Go!              
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